Day 16, it is over the hill now and I was thinking as I rode the bus that there has been no drama this challenge (YET) and it will be a great challenge. I felt strong and was in for a good 7 am class.
At awkward my feet started to hurt again, it was like they have been asleep and the blood came back into them. It was hurting as H***. Try to balance on a foot that hurts and cramps! I can tell you it is hard and I worked hard to not stand out the balancing poses.
When we came to the back-strengthening poses I was tired and exhausted and rested the second Full Locust and then the teacher said to me: “You have to find animal strength! Only you can work this for yourself no one else can do this for you.” I saw an animal within myself, it was a little tiny white mouse that peeked out of a hole, to scared to come out all the way. Then the tears came. A little scared white mouse! wanted a tiger or something, a little cat would have worked fine, a dog would have been great, a rhinoceros would have been even greater, but a little tiny scared white mouse.
I worked on the rest of the class, it was a relief to do the situps and I made it to the end.
After class the teacher asked me how I was and I told him about the mouse and with a big smile he said: “Not a good animal…”
Maybe it is a good animal. Maybe I am scared as a little mouse of what could happen if I totally gave in to the yoga? Mabe it is a good animal for a great predator to catch, the predator in me just haven’t seen the mouse yet. Maybe I have to think a lot about it. Probably. I will do so.