Hello fellow yogis who have followed this blog
It has been a long time since I last wrote here. It is time for an update and a closure of this blog.
Did I go to teacher training? No.
Will I ever go to teacher training? Maybe one day, but not now.
Some big questions in my life has always been; How can I gain weight when practicing so much? How can it be that my mind gets weaker and weaker? Why did my practice go backwards and not stronger after all these years of training?
It has been like I have had an alien in my head, and the alien has not wanted the best for me, but in a very subtle way trying to convince me to do things his way and to let him run the show. For him to take over. For him to be the one in charge. Slowly but surely I let him take over. I gave up the fight.
One day I came across a book and I realized one important thing about myself, I have an addiction, not to alcohol, not to drugs, not to medicine, not to any of those things what we normally call drugs, but to sugar, starches and any product that will become sugar in my body or that the brain believes is sugar.
This alien fed and grew stronger on sugar. What did I do before class, drink some rehydration mixture with sugar in it. After class, some dried fruits and nuts or a coconut juice with sugar in it. When I got home, I ate some pasta that is all starches and become sugar in the body. For breakfast I ate bread and guess what? It became sugar in the body. The alien had the time of his life!
Did the alien move in after I started practice yoga? No, he has lived there for a long long time, probably since I was a very small girl. Will he ever leave? No, he will live in my brain for ever. In one way that is the best thing ever that happened to me.
Because now I have to choose to feed or not to feed the alien, every day, every hour, and sometimes every minute I have to choose; Do I want to feed that alien in the brain or do I want to feed the Real Me?
Feeding the Real Me involves a lot of different things.
- First I need to eat the kind of foods that is good for me. My diet excludes everything that is or will become sugar in the body, it also excludes anything that is a substitute for these products.
- Then I need my 12-step program and the knowledge about the disease addiction.
- Last but not least I need the yoga. Yoga is a great healer of the body and the mind.
Is my life boring since I can’t eat certain foods? No! Since that day when I read that book my yoga practice has changed. My body has changed. My mind has changed. My entire life has change. Everything has changed for the better!
I wish you all the best that you can have in your life.
/A Truly Happy Yogi